Marvelous are thy works...Ps 139:14

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One of my favorite verses. Its also Miss TKO's life verse.

After we learned about Mr. C's diabetes, we went through a "we dont want anymore kids" phase. After a little over a year, we started to change our minds.

Before we knew it, it had been 3, 4 and 5 years! And still no siblings for Mr. C.
In 2003, I had surgery to remove endemetriosis. I was told that the procedure may or may not help me to get pregnant. After my recovery we continued to hurry up and wait.

I began to become very resentful. Every time we turned around, someone we knew was finding out they were going to have a baby. Everyone but us. It hurt, and it made me angry. Why?? Why?? WHY?????

We prayed and prayed, and no baby. I just kept saying, "Its just not the right time." and, "Maybe its because Mr. C need to be able to do a lot more for himself with his diabetes.." And finally, "When its time, it will happen!"(kinda goes along with the first one)

I finally got so angry and upset that I cried out to the Lord, like I already had done several times, "WHY? Why haven't you given us another baby?" I cried and I sobbed. I begged Him. I finally gave it ALL to the Lord and I said, "I dont want to deal with diabetes again with another child. I dont want to put him/her or ourselves through it again. BUT!...if it is Your will, so be it." I continued to pray that if it was indeed the Lord's will for us to have another child, that it would happen, but in His perfect time.

That night Kyle and I prayed about it. Together!! And we left it all in God's hands. We knew right then and there that IF we were going to have another baby, that ultimately, He was in control of it all.

A few weeks later..I found out I was pregnant. It was exactly ONE YEAR to the date of the previous surgery I'd had to take care of the endemetriosis!

We were thrilled!! I was sick! Litterally SICK..worse morning sickness--all day long--than when I was pregnant with Mr. C.



TKO came into the world on April 16, 2005. Each day has been a treasured gift from the Lord. She's my other lil angel sent from up above. We had really given up on the idea of us ever having another baby. I had a name picked out for a long time, Peyton Jewel. But then I was looking through a baby name book one evening. I had been looking through it for what seemed like forever. I came across the name Tobias. I started looking at other spellings for it, and I then went to the 'girls' section of the book. "TOBI" was listed as Hebrew, and short for Tobias. It meant, "God is good.." I knew at that exact moment, I needed to change her name. It was a perfect fit!

We had her dedicated in September of 2005 and the verse we picked out for her was, Ps 139:14..for marvelous are His works!